grandpop's empty house














































































































These photos are from my final walk through my grandparents house before it went to settlement. I hadn't been back there for months and decided to meet my mom there for one last go through & of course, had to bring my camera. It was amazing to walk through this empty house which held so many memories for me. nothing had really changed. it was quiet & peaceful, exactly as it always had been. the energy was still all there.

after taking photos and visiting every nook i felt a sense of relief knowing that this was a nice little home that a woman and her family were moving into. it felt okay to let go. it felt right. i met her and wished her the best.

you can't plan closure & i didn't but i certainly got it that day.

i love you, 411. & i'll never forget all that love in those walls.

my scar, myomechtomy


4 years ago to date i found a softball sized lump in my lower abdomen.
it was a fibroid tumor that had to be removed by the way of a procedure called a myomechtomy. this is the same a a cesarean section (c-section) from my understanding...only thing different is that you give birth to something much, much less beautiful.

i spent about 6 months sick, suffering from much stress and infection and fear along the way. the b/w photo is one of a few images i made during this time.
many people thought the project was about abortion.

with small fibroids a woman can have them lasered to be broken up and passed or laproscopic surgery but, mine was about a pound in weight so this surgery was the only way to remove it. which left a big scar.

and so i say to myself, scars are tough.